Are you proud of yourself? You should be...

 My Friend sent me this and it goes along with my last post. I am extremely proud of the person I've become. I still have flaws and always will but I am also embracing that side of myself so I can be whole. I know that I will make mistakes and probably often. But it is okay I don't have to be perfect to love myself again.

Have a Blessed Day and don't forget to hugg and tell your family and friends that you love them.

Huggs,

Cleary (Cie)

Silent Stregth...

 This is the truth... I have heard the whisper. I never knew I had as much strength as I do. I have never imagined that I could survive everything that I have but still be happy and content, even if things are still not totally the way I would like. I am so blessed with what I do have. I have plans that I will get too when the time is right. But mostly this last year has been mental changes that only I can do for myself. I'm in an awesome place mentally and looking forward to my life no matter what happens. I'm embracing my strength and being happy with myself and that is the most important part of living.

Huggs,

Cleary (Cie)

Wedding anniversary for 1...

 This is your favorite day- Halloween plus our Wedding Anniversary. I can't believe that I have been celebrating it alone for 8 years now. Everything about me has changed so much that I don't think you would even recognize the person I am now. I am so much stronger and wiser. I'm even happy and content now. It took a lot for me to get here to where I can celebrate this day with sadness but not overwhelming grief. I miss you everyday, but I'm also going on and living my life everyday. No matter what it entails each day. It has not been easy and still isn't. You left things a mess but I got though it all. I can't say that I forgive you totally I had thought I had but I don't think I ever will. Nor do I understand why you did it even though I have an idea of why. I do hope you are in peace now, but sometimes I wonder if it was truly what you wanted. But anyways, today I will cook a special dinner and watch one of our favorite movies. Get pictures of all our beautiful grandchildren in their Halloween costumes. You would be so proud of all of them and our Kids, they are wonderful parents. RIP my Love

Rheumatiod Arthritis sucks & pumpkins

 This article is really good at explaining my life for the last 30+ years. I have had good days and some of the worse days. I've been in remission for years and out of remission like now. My meds were working but I had been on them way to long and starting to effect my eyes. So now I'm on the hunt for new meds that will work and that I'm not allergic to. 

The ones I just got don't work so I had to stop taking them. Now I'm dealing with flares and the flu like symptoms. Luckily I have a high tolerance for pain but some days I just can't deal with feeling like I want to crawl out of my skin or there is broken glass in my whole body. Feeling like your jaw is going to break and not being able to chew from it because it hurts to bad. 

Having this for 30 plus I know all the ways to get relief and they work sometimes and other times they don't. But, I don't give up...I'm stubborn like that. So hopefully the next meds will help, but we will see when I see the doctor next week. But for now I deal with the effects a bit more that most days.

Second pumpkin added

I got the white pumpkin done this weekend and the leaves for the next one.

leaves for large pumpkin

I have to get the yarn for the large one and then will stack it on the bottom of the other 2.

I'm also still working on the sun flowers. Only the decrease rows to go plus weaving the millions of ends.

sunflower c2c

 

I hope you have a Blessed week. Hug and tell your family & friends you love them because you never know when life will change in an instant.

Huggs,

Cleary (Cie)
 

Spooky Month...

small pumpkin

 I finished one of 3 pumpkins I'm making in different sizes and colors.

Halloween Tree 2024

I decorated my tee for Halloween and I love the way it turn out.

Halloween leaves and bat

I added Halloween colored leaves to the hanging vase and a clip on bat.

I've been working on the sunflowers and I'm really close to being done

sunflowers

I'm pass this point now. 

It is getting cooler here finally which is nice.

That is all for now. Hug your family and friends and tell them you love them because you never know when it will change. Have a Blessed Month.

Huggs,

Cleary (Cie)

Being honset with myself...........

 

I saw this and realized it is so true. I've been kind of getting back into the dating world but slowly. Then I realized that no matter how nice, compatible, or handsome, some man is I get to the point where I'm scared and back away. And this picture is the reason why. My trust in love is broken. I doubt that it is going to last. Something I thought was unquestionable with love, trust and faith in my other half was shattered in one second. I know that I can never live through that again. I barely lived through it this time. I would rather just stay by myself than open myself to the chance that it could happen again. Even though I know it is a small chance. I am very disillusioned with Love. But it is okay I am very happy with myself and all the things I have accomplished to get to here. 🖤💜

Huggs,

Cleary (Cie)

It's starting to feel like Autumn...

 

It's getting cooler in the morning and during the day here. I have been getting my room decor for Autumn. I hung the flowers up in the hanging vase

I even made my tree for autumn 

I've been crocheting on the C2C sunflowers and some pumpkins. Hopefully will have them done this month.

I'm going to make a couple more in different sizes and colors.

 

That's about it will update again when i get something finished.

Have a Blessed Week and remember to tell your love one that you love them.

Huggs,

Cleary (Cie)